Wishes

And may we live in a world at peace and with the awareness of God’s love in every sunset, every flower’s unfolding petals, every baby’s smile, every lover’s kiss, and every wonderful, astonishing, miraculous beat of our heart.
Anonymous

The end of the old year accompanied by the beginning of the new.  The looking back and seeing both the good and the bad, finding the balance of the two.  Surprised at how many tears were shed in 2011 and yet we still ended it filled with laughter and love.  And now, 2012…looking forward to many things, but dreading  just a few.

We don’t do resolutions in our household.  That is just a set up for failure.  Instead, we have our wishes that were written down on little slips of paper and sealed up.  On New Years Eve, we will open them up and see how our wishes came true or how they’ve changed because of how we’ve changed.  Not matter how big or small, the wishes are written down and there is no limit to the number. I think it will be most fun to read the boys’ wishes and see how they change over the next few years.

Here are a few of mine:

  • Be a healthy person – physically, spiritually, emotionally   This is a biggie for me, but I’m on track.
  • Parent my growing children with love and model forgiveness and grace – This year, we will become parents to a teenager so I’m pretty sure I will have some challenges to grow in this area.
  • Connect with others – I tend to be a major introvert.  Although I enjoy my time with my friends, I love to be home and working on things by myself.  However, in doing so, I’ve inadvertently hurt some friends by not reaching out to them at times.
  • Simplify my life – I’ve already started this process, but I wish for it to move forward more this year.  You know that phrase, if it is useful or beautiful to you, get it out of the house?  That is the question I’m constantly asking myself as I look around at the things we own.
  • Create – I used to play with paper all the time, and sew, and knit, and bake, and, well, create.  For the last couple of years, I haven’t done that much.  There are just too many other drains on my time, but now I’ve found a group of women whom I relate to and they challenge me to create, not just for myself and my family, but for others.  I wish for that to continue this year.

You know, looking over this list, I see that it could be one basic wish.  I wish to live my life on purpose.  (Yes, I know that is a catch phrase right now, but it is true).  I’m tired of having life happen to me and looking back over the year and wonder why I feel like I’ve just gone through the motions.  Maybe it is just a part of my mid life crisis.  I am turning 40 in a couple of months, but I don’t want to just kind of wither away as I get older.  I want to be one of those people that embraces this time in my life.  My 20’s were fun.  I was having the time of my life getting my degree, performing regularly and getting married.  My 30’s were a whirlwind with 3 children in less than 4 years.  My 40’s will bring many changes as the boys become men and I want to be an example for them of what it means to live life fully.

So, 2011 is the sunset.  It was a beautiful year in it’s own rights, but 2012 is the sunrise of the new morning, filled with promise of what is to come.  We are now in the start of the new year and already some of my wishes are coming true.  I’ll let you know how it all works out…

Did you make any wishes for the new year?  It’s not too late.

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